Feels like crying a river.

Owh my God....ya Allah, I'm begging You to bestow me strength... a load of strength...

I don't know. I'm so down right now...so immersed with my own sad-feeling..I'm ashamed, felt like a stupid..I'm an arsehole.

Owh how I miss Abah and Ummi. They're not in Malaysia right now. In Istanbul I guess, freezing--Ummi told me in her message. My God...I miss her so much. She used to be my shoulder to cry on. Now, I have to rely on myself. I have to be independent. Handle my own emotions myself. But, can I? I don't think so..

p/s: Maybe I need to buy those "La Tahzan's books"..

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